halo halo

i'm back...
hahahahaha
punya blog tapi kok di neglect mulu...
akhirnya posting juga...
bulan puasa lo sekarang...month of ramadhan..chief of all months..
may all blessings, mercy, and forgiveness from Allah shines on all of us Amin..

Yun Ji Hu..
favourite character from a recently well known tv series..Boys before flowers...
why him?
because he is cute, polite, a little bit shy, talented, romantic, etc...
upon all of those, it's because sometimes i identify myself to him..mimicing him...
he does almost everything for the one he loves...with or without credit...
he won't care about the credit..
to make sure the one he loves safe and sound all the time is his ultimate goal...
one time and one moment he will tell the one he loves how he actually feels, another time he will pretend he ever said it...
he doesn't know when to feel hurt or to cry because he is so busy keepint the loving one happy...
sometimes when he's alone, that hurt feeling comes. at this time, he really wants to tell the loving ones the truth, to do all the efforts he can make to be with the loving one, to struggle to win the loving one...
but then he hesitates and stops..
cuz he knows, that loving one doesn't have to choose...cuz, somehow, love is not a choice...

so.........despite its exagarated setting.....what Yun Ji Hu and some other characters of the tv series do, show me the wisdom and maturity in loving someone...

last week...

last week..di dermatovenerology.....

uda last week tapi jaga masih dua kali lagi..

gara2 kebanyakan tukeran jaga nih....

pake acara kena varicella lagi..dpt jackpot mulu tiap stase...

ujian hari Jumat dengan dr.Rusma...have no idea how...

gak penting juga sih ujian ama siapa kalo uda siap, masalahnya kapan si ujian itu bener2 siap/

belum pernah kayaknnya...

btw, telat banget ya kena varicella...ulang tahun ke 23 baru kena..

tapi lesinya gak banyak kok..total lesi 18..

sekarang uda pada jadi krusta....

what to do..

namun tak kau lihat..
terkadang malaikat..
tak bersayap..tak cemerlang..tak rupawan...
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lagunya dewi emang top bgt nih...
terutama buat aku yang belakangan ini lagi ngerasa invisible..
holding on to a question "have you been busy lately?"...
tapi gak pernah punya kesempatan untuk bisa nanya langsung..
crying to sleep every night, wonndering what he will answer me...
or..will he answer me..?
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kali ini hampir habis dayaku...
membuktikan padamu..
ada cinta yang nyata....
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who' s the one playing around here...
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namun kasih ini.
silakan kau adu..
malaikat juga tahu..
aku kan jadi juaranya....
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too bad you will never know....
too bad you will miss this...

kini terasa sungguh...
semakin engkau jauh...
semakin terasa dekat..
karokean di litmin nih...
belum bisa pulang juga...
gmana nasib refrat ku yah..
kita serahkan saja pada Tuhan yang Maha Kuasa..
(hehhehehehhehe)
mau review beberapa stase nih...
apa yang dikangenin dari stase2 yg uda lewat
mulai dari yang pertama ya..
anestesi..kangen dr.endang...kangen kamarnya yang nyaman..
obgyn...kangen jaga vk..kangen kayu agung..
forensik..kangen main monopoli..main kartu
pdl..kangen maen ekg2an..kangen kak surya, kangen temen sestasenya.....hohoho
bedah..kangen lapjag, kangen dr.didit yang sumpah ganteng banget..kangen ok uro...(hahahaha)
radiologi..kangen dateng siang..kangen angelic nya dr.salim
neurologi..kangen kamar 3, kangen semua residennya yang baik2 banget, kangen perawatnya yang profesional, kangen jalan2nya..
anak...kangen makan dendeng basah sederhana jam 3 pagi, kangen gangguin barma, kangen anak2 box..
mata...kangen karokean ama anak2 sestase...
wah banyak yang dikangenin..
wh btw, ira bilang kangen yah..
bukan berarti mau ngulang yah...
mudah2an gak ada yang ngulang..
amin....

ah..
lagi di kulit...
uda 3 minggu...
so far so good...
memasuki stase2 terakhir...
semakin capek...
tapi..
pasti bakal kangen ama hari2 jadi koas ini..
jadi..
harus tetep semangat...
biar gak nyesel...
diantara rasa capek ini...
tetep masih gak bisa ngilangin seseorang dari kepala ini..
i hate this feeling..
one question..
have you been too busy lately?
aagh.........
i don't wanna forget you, i won't, i can't..
uda ah...
nerusin jaga bagian kulit dengan lagu2 gila aja lagi..

mau pulang

teman2 yang lagi di sungai kundur...
ayo pulang ke rsmh...
aku mau pulang ke rumahku..
mau ngerjain refrat..
besok mau bimbingan..
besok ortuku datang..
ayo cepetan dateng...
ayo dung...

scream out your love...

have you ever sreamed your love out loud...
i have...
since telling the person directly is quite impossible at that time...
(he's in the middle of nowhere...)
In the highest place i could possibly in Palembang...
i screamed him my love...i asked him all the questions i want to ask..
Hoping sky upon me looked at me..
Hoping the wind convey all my love...
Hoping he knew what i felt..
Surely hoping he felt exactly the same...
The next day..
i stood up in one big ship...
facing the longest river that divide the city into tw0 parts..
with a very good friend companion...
i told him my pain, how i missed him...
how i actually wanted to be with him..
how i wish everything was not that complicated...
how i wish he had the same wish...
it was painful, sad, and relieve at the same time...
So, you really have to try it sometime...
when you think you have no other way.....or you think it is the only way..
just scream your love..out loud....
Have a nice try...